It's christmas day!!! Merry Christmas everyone!!!

If I could visit my past self I would give myself a slap. Why did I have to be so goddamn whiny? I must of annoyed everyone like mad. I was just like oh nobody likes me and kept crying all the time. Why the hell should I care whether people like me or not? In truth I think I am a good person. Despite being an emo lol. But I'm going to try and stop getting worried whenever I am or anyone else is ill and going to die. Even though I've lost so much this past couple of years. There are people worse off than me. Sigh it's christmas I should be more cheerful but sometimes it's hard to smile. Some people think I haven't been in pain at all but I have. I'll never put my trust in some people again. I'll never speak to that person again and I mean it. No matter what people say. I'm also falling helplessly in love and there's no stopping it but I'm out of his league. Anyway this is not a rant it's a musing of myself relax I'll be fine I just felt like doing this.

I've dyed my hair dark brown!!!! It looks awesome!!! Well I think so. It's only a few days until Christmas!!! My electric guitar arrived today!!!! I'm glad!! I won't get it until Christmas day but oh well. My cousin may be able to teach me to play it. Anyway happy Christmas everyone!!!

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Hey!! I'm feeling a bit better now. Sigh I really need to get all the anime episodes of Sukisyo so I can make a piss take of it!!! I want to play through the game but I can't of course because it's in Japanese.

Anyway...

Oh my god I went to a sleepover at my mates house at the weekend. We watched part of the descent and most of Haunting in Conneticut which I have now have learned is not as scary when it's not gone one oclock in the morning while eating chocolate buttons it was a good film though. Better than bloody paranormal activity. My mates dog who loved me a few months ago started growling at me when I got in. But she soon warmed up to me...

In other news (I just feel like saying that)
Recently I did a collab with someone and I am thinking of doing a Christmas one. If you're interested then pick a base, draw an OC or something on one part of the base, send it to me and I'll add to it okay? Message me if you're interested Thank you~
I just also want to say that it must be done before the 26th of December. I'm also reminding myself too So if you're interested in some Christmas spirit let me know.

Updates: I really need to work on them
Sukisyo
1) Now a survivor- might be replaced with a new one with the same name
2) Sightless- A Loveless/Sukisyo crossover
3) Maybe some more drabble fics
4) A continued version of my Always Be Drabble (best one) where Sora and Nao are married.

Loveless
1) Sightless- See above
2) A Zero yaoi fic

Own Projects
1) Letters of goodbye
2) Sei's Lullaby
3) My Sci Fi one


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the Sora x Sunao sukisyo club

Oh good god I really need to get my next cosplay sorted out soon. It's not going to be easy. I'm going as Sunao fujimori or maybe Rena from higurashi as a back-up although doing Nao is going to be a bit annoying as I haven't got a Sora or a Matsuri. But Rena would be fun someday too. And also I'm into 07 Ghost now. Teito Klein is bloody epic!!!

Anyway arrgh my moods are fucking everywhere at the moment and I don't even know why. I'm just bloody confused and bitchy and tearful and it's really getting me down right now. I hope something will come and fucking lift me up and make me happy again. I'm just really upset at the moment. I'm going to delete all my Naruto fanfics off here cause I have no interest in it now sorry. I'm into new things now. Naruto is too immature for me. And part of it is that people pay too much to my fucking Naruto fanfics I can write better fanfics than that for gods sake!! All my old Naruto fics are stupid and immature and they all end with fucking corny endings. I'm glad to see the back of them. AND TO BE HONEST I REALLY DON'T GIVE A SHIT IF YOU ARE NOT HAPPY WITH ME DELETING THEM SO DON'T GO COMPLAINING TO ME!!!And please no oh they are good and oh cheer up you don't need to be down I really don't fucking need it right now. I just need to calm myself down alone. But what really pisses me off is I have to fucking do filming next week but all I've got to do for this piece of work is help out the editor. HOW ON EARTH IS THAT GOING TO FUCKING HELP?! THEY JUST SAID THAT THEY DIDN'T KNOW WHAT ELSE I COULD DO!!! IT PISSED ME OFF NO END!!! WHAT AM I ACCOMPLISHING WITH THIS??? I'M GOING TO JUST NOT CONTRIBUTE ANYTHING TO THIS PROJECT godammit!!! I just want something to do. I don't want to be left in the dark anymore...

okay:

1. My OC Sei [link] with Sunao Fujimori
2. Lelouch x Suzaku
3. Sora Hashiba x Sunao fujimori

thank you ^^